For the fourth time

If I start with ' a lot of things have changed', you'd probably slap me.

Cause I think that would be my fourth post saying that.

And it doesn't really look like it has, does it?

No, I don't think so either.

But DAMN, I really wanna say it out loud!

Because if you've seen me now, you'd say I'm back.

As compared to the last two years.

Maybe a little but more intelligent.

And a little more cautious.

A little bit more suspicious and it's gonna probably take more than a line to make me trust you.

If you're talking about me being an idiot, well, you don't really have to say it cause I already know.

And much more than that.

For so much I have given, is so much that I have lost.

Of all things that I had expectations for, the best of what I got was disappointment.

But I have no regrets, only lessons to learn.

And it taught me well, for those who don't already know, liars will always be liars, and cheaters will always be cheaters.

We don't really change that much, none of us do. Its what we really are inside. Regardless of who we're with. It is a matter of how much you are willing to show. Or whether you choose to be a wimp.

It has taken too much for me to be able to even stuff it in my head.

I think I've had enough lessons this year, to last me a lifetime.

If only I could really say what I wanted, I wouldn't be writing this crap.