Wednesday, January 21, 2009

LESSONS I'VE LEARNT

1. If you're nice, people use you

Simple, yet true. It’s amazing how you read in the papers and scoff at people who have been conned out of their life savings or getting robbed trying to help others. We can’t deny the fact that it’s true. If you’re too nice, they say you’re faking it. If you’re being honest by saying you don’t know how something works, they say you’re stupid. You listen to them, ah, this is where it gets all interesting and juicy. If you’ve always been the nice, obedient, silent one, (by silent I mean you don’t talk back. Yes, I mean parents), well, they expect you to be nice, obedient and silent. And they think whatever they say must be obeyed. So yes, they do drastic things like trying to split the rent so that you don’t sub-let it out (WTF?!) and oh, losing their dignity and calling some total stranger’s parents to ask them to ask their children to move out etc etc. So I ask, why the double standard? Why that treatment for me, and yet my sister gets whatever she wants in the exact same circumstances? Right, here’s where the golden answer comes in. Cause she might do something silly if she’s being told off. I mean, WTF x ∞ ???! So, lesson learnt kids: For you to get your way, try committing suicide at a young age (a few times recommended) and don’t forget to let them know that you tried.

Well, I think it’s a bit too late for me to start now. But who knows?

2. Malaysia's going backwards.

Here's proof:

Top stories around the world

US: Historic Inauguration- Barack Obama is 44th President of the United States.

China: Fighting Bird Flu

Europe: Russian gas reaches Europe again via Ukraine

Kuwait: Palestinian president calls for unity government

Australia: Fisherman saved off Australia after 25 days at sea

Malaysia: PAS plans to stop Rihanna concert. WTF??!

3. Love isn't overrated.

You say, dump him, screw him, forget him and pick yourself up, you'll do better without him, you'll be okay, he's not worth it, you're stupid for even trying, you're an idiot for waiting, he's using you, you're blind, he's not meant for you, he's not good enough for you, you can do better than this. And then you end with a 'i don't know why you do this to yourself'.

I'll tell you why.

Because there's more to it than meets the eye. You've been through so much together it won't make any sense just to throw it away. You hope that things will change for the better. Yes, we know that he's lied to your face a million times, he's covered up so many stories you've lost count. But we, the female gender, are blessed with the most spongiest brains and the strongest hearts. We remember every single detail. Every tiny one. We hate you for lying, there's no doubt about that. But we still love you. Love is by far the strongest tool (to build and destroy). Yes of course we will get hurt. But we are stronger than what you think. We don't lash out at poeple like guys do, we deal with it inside, we cry ourselves to sleep, we beat ourselves up for being so stupid, we drink ourselves to death (in the loo) so that we might at least get some sleep.

And the next morning, you wake up and wonder why the **** did you even bother crying for him. And you let your heart mend and you vow never again to cry like that ever again. But it happens again and the cycle begins.

It will continue until that flicker of hope that things will finally go your way, dies.

Not to worry, it won't go on for long. Either things will really change, or there will come a time where you won't take any of this shit anymore.

Then you'd wish you'd never been born.

Wait. I'm ranting away.

I'll tell you why. Again.

1. You love him.
2. You smile when you see him.
3. He gets your jokes.
4. He knows what ticks you off.
5. He knows how to make himself look stupid just to make you laugh.
6. When you're ranting on about someone he doesn't even know about he'll get even more pissed off at that person just to show how much he loves you.
7. He picks you up for lunch and drives you home from work.
8. He loves your dog because you do.
9. He calls just to say hi.
10. You look at him and he'll know what you're thinking.
11. He carries your shopping.
12. He forces you to drink water when you're sick even though you hate it.
13. He laughs at you for getting sick.
14. He tucks you into bed and hugs you throughout the night, and in the morning, you smile when you wake up seeing his ruffled hair looking all scruffy and silly.

And it makes it all worthwhile.

4. The quietest ones thinks the most.

We don't talk so much. Hence we've got the time to think. DUH.

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